The Birthday of the Infanta
Oil on Canvas, 30×24 inches, 2022
The Birthday of the Infanta is my favorite fairy tale by Oscar Wilde. It may not be as famous as The Nightingale and the Rose or The Happy Prince, but it is undoubtedly the most heartbreaking story for me.
If I had to capture the essence of this story in a single image, I would depict the moment when the little dwarf’s heart breaks. In the story, the dwarf is unaware that his ugly appearance and comical actions are the real reason the princess laughs. In his ignorance, he believes the princess truly likes him, and he, in turn, likes the princess who seems to like him.
What frightens me most is the heartbreak that comes from realizing the truth. I fear that I am like the little dwarf in the story—naïve or ignorant, falling into unrequited affection. Confronting this inner fear, I can only express it through painting, using narrative art to face this mix of pity and unease.
Oil on Canvas, 30×24 inches, 2022
“When the truth dawned upon him, he gave a wild cry of despair, and fell sobbing to the ground. So it was he who was misshapen and hunchbacked, foul to look at and grotesque. He himself was the monster, and it was at him that all the children had been laughing, and the little Princess who he had thought loved him - she too had been merely mocking at his ugliness, and making merry over his twisted limbs. 'Why had they not left him in the forest, where there was no mirror to tell him how loathsome he was? 'Why had his father not killed him, rather that sell him to his shame? The hot tears poured down his cheeks, and he tore the white rose to pieces. The sprawling monster did the same, and scattered the faint petals in the air. It grovelled on the ground, and, when he looked at it, it watched him with a face drawn with pain. He crept away, lest he should see it, and covered his eyes with his hands. He crawled, like some wounded thing, into the shadow, and lay there moaning.”
——excerpt from The Birthday of the Infanta